Hello, fellow travellers! I know I’ve been away for quite awhile, and I think that’s what I want to write about in this blog post.
Before I get into it, however, I want to give an update on my progress. I’m currently sitting at around 125K words on AfterLife, a book that is proving to be the bane of my existence. When last I wrote, I assumed it would be finished at this point, but I still have about 4-5 chapters left (though I have it mapped out, I sometimes find the need to break chapters into two so they don’t go on too terribly long). Either way you look at it, I’m getting very close to finishing this draft. In fact, my goal is to complete it by March 1st, because that’s when I’m planning to go back to school.
Yes, I’ve decided that I should take my lack of free time and dedicate it toward furthering my education. On top of that, my mother and I are in the midst of launching an audiobook company, so that’s definitely something to look forward to. I’m planning on my first recording to be The Shadow Walker. Yes, I haven’t forgotten about that series, and the third book is sitting pretty at about 60K words, though I plan to go back to it and build it up a bit before release. With some luck and perseverance, I’ll be able to have both the audiobook of the first book and the printed version of the third book out by the end of the year.
But this post is supposed to be about my lack of updating this blog. I honestly don’t know why I’ve found it so difficult to post here. When I first started this journey, I was ecstatic to share my thoughts and updates and hopes and dreams. Lately, though, I feel like this blog has become a bastion of broken promises. Assertations that something will be released soon, only for many months to pass without much progress. Instead of being excited about what I have accomplished, I’ve been ashamed of what I haven’t.
I’m really hoping to change that mindset. That said, I’m not promising anything anymore. I have no idea when AfterLife and the third Unseen Things will be released. I am targeting 2022 for both, but I don’t want to raise expectations. And I don’t want to set myself up to feel like a failure.
Truth is, I lost the spark there for awhile. Depression led to medication which led to… a void. That’s about as far as I’ll get into it, but that void was there for a long time. It’s gone now and I’ve been slowly rebuilding the worlds and characters in my mind, reacquainting myself with them. It’s been a long, arborous process and if I’m being frank, there were several times I considered just throwing in the towel.
Yes, I almost became that series that ended on a cliffhanger. Fortunately, I have some good support in my life, people who encouraged me to go on. And now that my head is in a better place, it’s back to business. I may still be figuring out how to eek out the time to write, but my mental factory is in full-swing.
After I finish AfterLife and World of Shadows (still not sold on that name), I am going to take a break from both series. Yes, I know, I already did that, but there are a few other books I need to write. I have a horror/fantasy series that will, more or less, be a trilogy. I have a magic/tech fantasy series I’ve been looking forward to writing. I have a YA science series that’s been percolating on the back burner. There’s a sequel to Ascension that’s been begging to be written, though truth be told, I’m not sure it’ll ever come to fruition. Plus I have a number of shorts I’ve been working on, both related to my main series and standalones. And the very first book I ever wrote, The Spirits of Man, may someday see the light of day.
And, in addition to all that, I will still have the fourth (and final!) Unseen Things book, and the finale of Only Human on the Block, however many books that becomes. I can’t promise when these books will be finished, only that I look forward to putting them out into the world. I wish I could go back and force myself to have been more productive these past few years. Instead, I will put my passion and energy into what I do moving forward.
And I will strive to do better to keep my blog updated. Even if I have nothing much to report, I miss the friends I’ve made here. I appreciate everyone’s patience while I’ve navigated my mental and emotional labyrinth. I truly believe I’ve made it to the other side stronger and better than I’ve ever been.
As always, thanks for reading.